Friday, March 18, 2011

Personification

I look in at you, see you staring back,
I sway in the breeze, loose my leaves,
I change my clothes in the form of my leaves,
I hold hands with others that stand by my side,
I don't miss either day or night,
I am always awake looking at you,
Wishing I could run away like a kid mad at her parents,
But I just sit here every waking moment,
Dying and dying,
Then a dog comes and pees on me,
I pet the dog as it leans on me,
Maybe I can play catch in the park,
But nobody cares about me,
I am just a dying old tree.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

2081

The year was 2081. Everything was working out. I was the old lady causing the trouble in the nursing home. The one who made the nurse call the cops in the room and say "This lady is crazy! Get her out of here!" The cops just laugh and think, wow, this innocent little lady. Then they ask what I am even doing anyways. The nurse has to giggle a little bit when she says this now and then replies, "She is slamming into walls with her wheelchair and knocking down everything and anything in her way she just took out a 80 year old man!" The cops start laughing and then say "Hey! Lady what are you thinking?" All I say is, "I wanted some fun! I feel like I can touch the sky!" And that was my singing..."Never say never. (never say it, never never say it." Then I start rapping my husbands song from when he was younger...
"Here we go!
Guess who?
JSmith and Jb!
I gotcha lil bro.

I can handle him.
Hold up, aight?
I can handle him.

Now he's bigger than me,
Taller than me.
And he's older than me,
And stronger than me.
And his arms a little bit longer than me.
But he ain't on a JB song with me!

I be trying a chill
They be trying to side with the thrill.
No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will.

Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove.
Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood.

I gotta be the best, and yes
We're the flyest.
Like David and Goliath,
I conquered the giant.
So now I got the world in my hand,
I was born from two stars
So the moon's where I land."

"Take her outta here!" The cops yell and scream but right at that moment I wheelchair away and hide at an underground place...I will never be found until my husband finds me.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Valentines Day

Spread the love, happiness and joy,
This is the day to do it.
Share a laugh, kiss, and hug,
Enjoy this day to the fullest.
It only comes once a year ,
and is meant to be the day of love.
Don’t be sad and all depressed,
If you don’t have someone to love.
All your friends love you tons,
It doesn’t matter if you are with someone.
If you belong with them or not.
Just remember on this day,
That we will always love you just the same.

....I do not really like this much so tell me how to make it better...

Friday, January 7, 2011

There is a reason they are called DREAMS.....

Waiting, hoping, wishing, dreaming.
Maybe today things will change.
All my waiting may be over,
All my hoping and wishing will come true,
And maybe just maybe my dreams will become reality.
This probably wont happen just like that,
If it does I will have the best thing I can ever have, you.
I wait because maybe just maybe you feel the same way.
I hope that one day we can be together,
I will wish that you are by my side and never leave,
And I dream that your mine.

Friday, December 10, 2010

poem about a painting... the wood carrier

Old and barely touched with life,
About to see an angel in the autumn,
His last hope is through this child,
Her blue shirt full of life,
She does not think anything is wrong with this picture,
With the old man using his watchful eye,
Keeping her out of trouble,
But he is in his own.
She has innocence,
Does not mean to harm,
She is doing nothing wrong,
Because of the old man's eye,
Watching and watching,
Waiting and waiting,
He doesn't know when it is coming,
But soon is sooner than he may think,
His watchful eye should be on himself,
But he is thoughtful and does not care,
He is willing to risk his life for this girl,
This girl is close in his heart and through love,
The love takes over all the other emotions,
This is where the old man will lie,
Not because something bad happens,
But because of his love for this young girl,
He is sacrificing everything for her,
Just like a grandfather to his granddaughter.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

"Speak" Essay

Imagine starting a new year of high school, but all of your prior friends are disgusted by what you did in the summer. You don’t know if the reason they hate you is because of the fact that you called the police in the summer or for something else than just the drinking part of the party. You are the only one who knows why you called the police nobody else knows because you choose not to tell them. The reason you do not say anything is because that moment ruined your life, ruined your mind, ruined your voice, ruined your brain, ruined your appearance and everything else that can be ruined got ruined. In the novel Speak,Laurie Halse Anderson takes the reader into the life of Melinda Sordino, a girl lost in a high school world of identity crisis.

The theme in "Speak" is all about identity; Expressing identity and not having one. An example is Heather who has an identity but it is hidden because she is trying to fit in. I understand why her identity is being hidden though because she is at a new school and does not have any friends yet. The only friend that she had was Melinda but that friendship got lost and then somewhat regained. The friendship got lost because Heater tried fitting in with a new group of people and then started having their identity so she also dislikes Melinda to fit in with the rest of her group. When that identity goes wrong she crawls back to Melinda. Around Melinda Heater actually has an identity and she is a preppy girl thhat wants to do everything the right way but also needs help from other people. The help that she needs is pretty much help fitting in but that does not work out. The main theme of "Speak" is to not try and fit in but to be yourself and not to change your ways.

Along with her ideas on identity the author uses symbolism to fully develop what is happening. Her room is a symbol of this because it is a mix of all of her previous friend’s rooms and none of it really shows her personality if she even has one. Next, the couch in her family room that they do not eat off of represents that her family is trying to look perfect. Really they do eat on this couch and they flip it's cushions upside down just like when her parents are fighting the couch cushions are suddenly flipped to the messy side metaphorically. Also, the school mascot changing all the time represents the lost identity as well. They cannot make up their mind just like Melinda who cannot make up her mind about who she wants to be.

Another one of the many symbols in this book I think is one of the most important is her lips. The thing that is happening with her lips is they are all scared and have soars and are chapped like crazy. Melinda is the one who is doing all of this to herself. This is the one kind of pain that she can control. Nobody else is making her lips hurt, it is her and she can control what hurts and when unlike her broken heart. She may not even notice that her heart is broken but I can tell. She does not have friends to talk too or anybody to believe in her, to support her.

The other most important symbol is the closets. The first closet is her own and she goes in there to get away from everyone and everything that’s not good in life. The same thing happens with the closet that she found within the school. In that closet she ditches class just to get away from what the former friends say is wrong with her and them being so mean to her.


Melinda is an interesting character who has a reason not to speak. She has no friends that like her any more as she says she is "Outcast" as in the only outcast in the entire school. I do not believe her that she is the only outcast because in a school you never see one outcast you see a group of outcasts that are kind of friends but really just need one. Also because Melinda has told lies before so why would she be telling the truth? Melinda sees herself differently than everybody else. She does not want to look in the mirror because Andy Evans raped her and she did not tell anybody. Every time she looks in a mirror it reminds her of this and she has many flashbacks throughout the story. Melinda has one friend who is the new girl. She gets really mad at Melinda because Melinda is always depressed and doesn't want to even be alive. Melinda wants to be popular and that is why she went to the party and drank and then did not know what Andy Evans was doing but only knew that she was attracted to him and wanted to have a older boyfriend to start the year. Also, Melinda says that judging people is mean and wrong but really she always judges people because she gives them nicknames like Hair women and more. Melinda also does not like to speak up after the incident happened and now her parents are finding trouble with this. When she finally decides to speak of it she tells the wrong person at the wrong time and she doesn’t say it she writes it. Melinda has many problems so far in this story.

Next, the boy that she calls IT is Andy Evans. Disgusting minded, abrupt, ludicrous rapist describe Andy Evans although he swears he did not rape anyone and that she wanted it as well although she really didn't. Andy Evan's does not have a good reputation and I can see why especially near the very end of the book. He is only dating younger girls because they are "Freshmeat" referring to what he called Melinda. Some people call Freshman that because they are new to high school and therefore very gullible which easily backfires if you look innocent like Melinda. Andy is going after the young girls because he cannot get one from his own grade and he just wants to do crap to them. Also, Rachel also called Rachelle dated him because he is older and tall and handsome and all the young girls want him besides the one who know his true identity. In the end there are many other characters but Andy Evans is by far the most hebetudinous character in a book I have read yet and he got me really aggravated in this book from beginning to end.


Now think about it this way as if you or a close friend was in the same situation as Melinda. Getting things done to her within her first year of high school. Would you tell anyone? Would you want to know if this happened to a friend? Personally I would've told the police and had him arrested so he couldn't come close to doing the same thing again. Despite the characters I liked the symbolism as well as the theme of identity in the book "Speak."

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Sometimes.....

Sometimes I cry because I am happy. Sometimes I laugh because I am sad. Sometimes I try to hard to do the easiest things. Sometimes I say stupid things but do not mean them. Sometimes I complement people because I care. Sometimes I eat a lot because I don't care what people think. Sometimes I love to regain what I have lost.